“The Grand Embrace of Love”
Pain blocks love – and then becomes a doorway for love to enter in.
I See Papa’s love for the me who is in MacKenzie,
Take after take, stab after stab,
Grace upon grace
I Hear Her truth of being for me in everything,
I never left her, I never left you
I never leave
I Feel MacKenzie’s fury and desperate wrestle with the senseless and the crazy,
The agony of unanswered questions
Glare meets gaze
I hold “The Great Sadness” as it shuts me down and wipes me out,
Clipped wings, unable to fly
Resistant to being loved
I know I am stuck in the knothole of pain as I hang on my cross,
I twist, I turn,
I Acknowledge the reality of being helpless, seeming hopeless, in
Pain and death, suffering and sorrow, anguish and agony
A gut-wrenching scream, “Get me out of here!”
How can I ever get through to the “other” side? A whisper comes – I must.
I Let Go into the wild power of not knowing,
Yielding as I melt and awake to what is. Here. Now.
Some how I trust in the flow of forgiveness and freedom.
My silent Yes surrenders into the simple astonishing love that has always echoed in me.
I receive “The Grand Embrace” of relentless affection for She is awfully fond of me.
I am wrapped in a beautiful enveloping that sheds the illusion of separateness.
I expand to hold what is most precious to me, and am sustained within and all around.
I am recalled – to the radiant freedom of a life of love – recalled to know who’ve I’ve always been.
I am Home with Love
Reflective Poem & Photos by Lorie Martin